A new year resolution?

Wow, the last time i blogged was 2 years back? I wasnt even pregnant with Jireh yet. Now, he is a cheeky little 2 year-old cute boy. On top of that, i have a pretty, big-eyed and domineering 8 month old baby girl. So much to catch up with me huh, blogspot? :)

A sudden urge to blog again. Not because i am free, but i guess life is too short and memories are too mich to be remembered. Many said, you will always remember the good moments in your life. True and not true. But im sure there are some precious moments you will forget, no matter how beautiful they are, unless you revisited them (via photologue or blogs or diary). Example. I cant really exactly remember how Jireh looked like when he was pretty much younger. Beautiful memories we had the past 2 years. But i bet you would want to remember as much as possible. And too bad, we cant. And what if, one day should my memory deteroriate, i have blogs to freshen me up. Even if they cant, at least, i can read up my life story, those times that were precious to me, once upon a time...

This year, i would like to record down all the activities we did with the children. Just want to record down the what, where, when, how and why. So that we can smile on the screen one say and glad that we did what we did (or not).

Is this a new year resolution? Lol. 'resolution' never work on me.

我的空白日记

Today is our 3rd

Make a Smilebox greeting

When the wind blows...

... i know that Christmas is near.

Just imagine... 

when the wind gently blows, 

the curtains took the crows.

silence surround the house,

as quiet as a mouse.

lounging on a chaise,

enjoying the breezy chase.

oh! how i love this feeling!

I love being home. 

I love silence.

I love Christmas.  

have you seen anything like this before?

Look! an antique Uno cards!

My auntie who doesn't play uno has it. 

and it is still in very goooooooood condition!

amazing! so retro!

UuuuuuuNOoooo!

The psychology of learning

"Pavlov's theory is known as classical conditioning. The distinticive characteristic of this form of learning is that a particular stimulus comes to elicit a response after the learning experience that it did not elicit before. Skinner (1978, 1953) calls this respondent behaviour: the response follow automatically upon the appearance of the stimulus. Skinner, however, argued that most behaviour is not to be accounted for in terms of classical conditioning, for most behaviour is operant behaviour. Operant behaviour is so called because it is behaviour that operates on the environment; we cannot normally identify any particular stimulus produces such operant responding as talking, grasping, play. Operant behaviour is emitted by the organism rather than elicited by stimuli. Skinner does not explain the learning of termsof the patterns of reinforcement that determine its occurence. In classical conditioning what reinforces the behaviour is the unconditioned stimulus, but what reinforces the operant response is a reward that follows the response. The reward following the operant makes the response more likely to occur again. This is operant conditioning."

Liap wu giu bo?

If you finished reading this, i admire you for the patience.

I'm going to lay hands on my notes, burn it, put it in water, speak into it and then drink it.

Admire me back for my bo-liao-ness. hee

Signboard

[Postdated entry 20 Aug 2008]

David took this signboard couple of months ago at a coffeeshop in the West. I find it amusing.

The owner might as well save the money from doing that signboard. There will be no chance that a customer will be served based on the requirements to be served. Or just print two words "自助" (self service) would be suffice. 

Serving out of convenience is not service at all. 

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"Life is so unloving for a servant who's not serving." - Beauty & the Beast 

Emotions unplugged

Today's class. 

Activity 1. 

1. What is your happiest memory of being in a learning situation as a child under the age of 16?

2. What is your least happy memory of a learning situation as a child under the age of 16?

3. Were your memories you have described for questions 1 and 2 linked in any way?

4. How might your happinest memory have shaped your subsequent development as a learner?

5. How might your least happy memory have shaped your subsequent development as a learner?

6. Has either memory played any part in shaping you as a person?

7. How do you feel about your answers? Do they surprise you?

Faint. hardisk crashed. I cant recall anything!

(but i had a wonderful childhood, sompa!)

Yearbook yourself

This is how my "ang mo" ancestors looked like.
You must be laughing now. Try it! and laugh your head off.
mUuahahahahahahah~

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Lots of backlogs to catch up..

check.list.

1. Laundry needs to be cleared
















2. Rooms need to be tided





















3. post-dated blogs need to be published



















4. and etc
5. and etc etc

I wish when i open my eyes the next morning, everything would be done.
In my dreams, perhaps.

20082008

Today is 20 Aug 2008

David and i have been collecting $1 and $0.50 coins some months ago.
We reckon that this is one of the best way to save money. Slightly more than 3 months, we managed to save up $450 plus. It is quite an achievement huh.

This sum comes handy when Sze Chuan Single parent project comes along.
We decided to donate what we have saved to this project.

To cut the whole story short... I packed the coins into two bags - $1 coin mounted $360. $0.50 mounted $100. I took both bags with me to Tanjong Pagar market, wanting to change notes with a fruit seller. The auntie only wants to change $100. Ok, so i took the other bag of $360 back, planning to break those coins down into bags of $100 so that i can change over 3 days. It is more 'sell-able' this way.

My colleague wanted to help me to change the remaining sum that i have with a florist this afternoon. During lunch, i took out the bag and re-count the money. To my horror, i have given the $360 bag in exchange for $100 from the fruit seller on Monday! Dozens of question flooded into my mind. Has she used the money? Would she be honest and return me the money? My colleague quickly went to the fruit seller with me. She counted the money with me, so in a way can be my witness and i guess with her around, i would feel more secure.

I was panick along the way, but not as panicky as i thought i would be. Even though i was wondering if i would get back the money, i somehow managed to calm myself down and trust that God would help me overcome this implication. I kept on confessing that i will get back the money. That is God's money! We intended that for good use, surely God will not allow the wealth to fall into the world right... At the same time, i was also prepared myself that i may not get back the money at all. And i thought about how should i account this to David.. However, God's peace and assurance was there. I cant describe it.. even though i was still quite jittery, but i just have this assurance that i would get the money back.

When we approaching the fruit stall, i suddenly have butterflies in my belly. How should i start? I suddenly have no confidence. If the auntie denies, how should i react? It was slightly after lunch time, the fruit stall was quite crowded. I was afraid that the auntie may shoo me aside.. anyhow, i pluck out the courage to ask her:

(she was quite emotionless when she talked to me)
me: auntie, do you remember me? i came to change money with you on monday
auntie: how much?
me: have you used the money?
(she then stretched her hands to her drawer and i was delighted to see my bag of coins still intact, only that it was put in a clear plastic bag)

auntie: how much?
me: $360!!
she nodded and from her apron, she took out a couple of $50 notes and handed me $260.

I was supermely elated! at the end of the day, i bought $13+ worth of fruits from her to repay her kindness. (it was so heavy to carry them to school later the evening. but worth it! haha)

PRAISE THE LORD!

I will always remember this day - 20082008

Snippets of the day

On our way to church this morning, i heard this very funny joke in Class95 by Flying Dutchman & Glenn Ong. I must say, they are really a good match!

"Why do scuba divers fall backwards to get off the boat?"
Guess what is the answer?

(because... if they fall forward, they will fall into the boat!)

I spent a good 1 min laughing at this joke. They are really good, it helps to chase away whatever blues you may have for the day and laughing is a good morning exercise! Do tune in if you may! (though sometimes it was quite lame, but the lameness will lighten you up) :)

I reached office at 930am. While waiting for the lift that goes directly to the higher level of the building, i turned and saw an Indian lady stood outside a lift full of eager commuters, pointing her index finger upwards, as if asking whether the lift is going up. My first thought was... there is no basement in this building and for goodness sake, this is ground zero, no way you can go down, of course they are going up... what a question to ask.. 真不清醒。

Then later the day, this incident came back to me. And it just dawn to me that the lady might be asking whether the lift goes to a certain storey and other possibilities etc. I was too quick to judge and look at things too superficially. Something to reflect upon. I was praying to God to guard my heart this morning, i suspect this is God's way of testing/working in me. haha. 不知道是谁不清醒。

Morning breakfast kakis for the day~

Happy 5th birthday metamorphoziz!

I was very tired, but could not sleep last night (Must be the half cup coffee i consumed in the late afternoon).. I was mingling with my blogs and suddenly i have an urge to revamp my blog interface and fah-laa! what you see is what you get. By the time i decided on a blogskin and customized the scripting to my preference, it was about 5 in the morning already. Oh gosh!

Coincidently, because of the new blogskin that i am very pleased with, i begin to re-read my past entries, and realised that my blog is 5 years old on 13 August 2008! 5 years for 150 entries, averaging each year 30, which means to say in a month i have blogged at least 2.5 posts. I thought not bad huh! (or not? hahaha)

As i was reminiscing, i was quite surprised at some enteries i wrote... quite proud of myself. Hahaha. Where on earth i have those thoughts?? I thought i wrote better last time than now. Have i been progressing forward or naught? gee..

anyway.

Happy birthday metamorphoziz!

A nightmare came true

My nightmare came true this morning..

My friend sent me a loud (really loud) old song called "Cha Cham Bo" last month. I have decided to set that song as my alarm melody every morning because it is loud enough (double emphasis) to wake me up.

I always have this fear that my bonkers phone may blast out the melody in the middle of the service someday... in my denial, i told myself it wont happen because it only rings at 8 o'clock in the morning.. and i have been very cautious; whenever i attend any meetings to have my phone turned to silent mode. I thought i was safe, until... i met THE day...

I turned my phone to silent mode.
I was having a great time worshiping the Lord, immersing into His presence..
After a series of corporate prayer, Pastor Kong was ending the prayer meeting with a closing prayer, and while he was praying... (this was the time the hall was quieter..) all of a sudden... "CHA CHAM BOOOoOooooo" I almost flipped. Thank God I am quick enough to stop the alarm before it moved on to "你看我，我看你..."

Faint. (But thank God I was swift enough to stop the catastrophe. My neighbors seems nonchalant about it, so "phew")

I quickly switched off my alarm, thinking that it will not ring again.
Lo and hold, 5 mins later... "CHA CHAM BOooooOOoo"

Faint, faint.

(I wanted to post the song here, but dont know how to do it)

Ah, to round up, i have a good time praying today. Even though i was late... Actually waking up early feels really good! the air is cooler and... it just feels goood!

This is the breakfast for the day!
A pack of green tea, lo mai kaie, 2x siew mai and 2x prawn dumplings


















I found something similar at the back of the chilli sauce..(see arrow. looks like our church logo!!!) triple faint.
















And.. yeah! i got my stickers! Blessings~Hope~Provision

missing something

Today is my second morning.
Arriving church slightly before 7 in the morning.
Seeing church from afar... nostalgia.
I'm missing something...


















I can feel it coming. something familiar.
It overwhelmed my heart,
I can smell it.
I miss SOT.

















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Can you see the difference in the skylight?
We were just trying to make a U-turn from the multi-storey carpark into the church building, and it took us from dust till dawn... just within a few minutes?

岁月不留人呀！
在你不留意的时候，时间似从没关紧水龙头的水，滴答滴答地悄悄溜进了那无边无际的大海。。
永远都找不回遗失的那一滴。。

你是否是那个关不紧的水龙头，就这样浪费了每一滴，每一秒呢？

好好的珍惜每一分，每一秒。
好好的珍惜身旁的人吧！

The first morning

First out of the 10 days of morning spiritual exercise.

This is how wonderful the sky looks like when i was on my way to church for morning prayer meeting.

Just one word - shiok

Sail away

I was trying out the Photoshop software that bundled with my laptop. Quite fun mingling with it.

I really love my Vaio laptop. So many multimedia softwares and most of all, Photoshop! now i can edit pictures! I dont do super-impose, dont worry. What you see is what you get. heehee.

Time for creative juice to ozzze!

The Dark Knight

First time watching a Batman show. Another one of those superhero stylo milo show.

The joker is ruthless.
I wonder where the director/producer get the 'killings' ideas from..
How can they be so creative to come such psycho killing ideas like the "permanent smile" (and etc).
I wonder if they have done research and have seen such deeds somewhere in the world.. if they do, that is really scary!
Though the ending of such shows is always the good triumphs over the evil, but i just simply help but think if such killing ideas should be screened internationally. It could just simply giving the extremists more ideas to kill and torture (or perhaps they do not even need to be taught). Referencing the Roman history... perhaps their psycho-ness is even more psycho. They throw people into the lions' den to see how the beasts tear up human for enjoyment.

People in the world are living in fear.
Some fear lack. Some fear the supernatural, and the list goes on.
However, the most fearful thing in the world is human. Or should I say, the evil intent (heart) of human. They can create peace, they can create chaos - depend which side they are at. The intent of the heart.. something that no naked eye can see...
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Love each other or perish - Auden

Nowadays trend

Nowadays, before you can partake of your food,
not only you must say grace (for christian),
before you indulge in your delicious meal,
it is a trend to have your camera to 'devour' the food first before it fills your empty stomach.




















What has the world turning into?

Rain Down

A picture i took from my office today. Rain is coming in. shhoooosh! Rain down! My heart is dry but still I'm singing, rain down... rain it down!

Why sit?

I have been wondering why for many years, why do ladies like to use sitting toilet bowl when squat is more hygienic.

There are times you see footprints on the pedestal. Apparently some squatted on top of the pedestal seat. How 'considerate' they are! Some don't know how they sit, never 'aim' (yea right. Ladies need to aim too) properly and dirty the pedestal seat. To weigh to pros and cons, personally i think squat is so much better than sit. Why have all the public toilets turn most of the cubicles to sitting toilet bowl?

Only yesterday then i realised the possible reason.

It was my grandpa's 90th birthday. My family made a trip back to Malaysia to celebrate this BIG occasion with him. Half way through the dinner, my grandma wanted to go to the restroom. I held her there. The inconsiderate me trying to look for a clean squatting cubicle for her, at the same time she is looking for a sitting one. Not understanding why, i held her to the sitting cubicle. While she was closing the door, i suddenly have a revelation. It can be pretty dangerous for elderly to use the squatting cubicle because they could easily fall when they get up. Ah.. the answer that i have been looking has finally came to me. Its one advantage 'kills' all the pros of a squatting toilet bowl. Sitting toilet bowls are created for safety reasons, friendly for the elderly, the handicaps and even for the sick. People with low blood pressure can feel faint when they got up from squatting. I used to think the design is mere stupidity! I have to repent and salute them!

Truly, every creation is designed to serve its purpose. Everything exists for a reason. Surely, God does not create human being for mere existence. There is surely something more than life and the question we should ask ourselves is, "are we living up to our purpose?" instead of "why are we here on earth?"

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If you are like me who can't use the sitting toilet bowl with a peace of mind, try using the toilet hygiene spray. It sanctifies the pedestal seat and with the aroma that lingers in the air, it really gives you a pleasant feeling while you do your business (hee). It can be purchased at Carrefour or Guidance. Look something like this Sure Clean Hygiene spray. I never leave home without this!